CherBear's Thoughts - MidApril Madness

Oh boy - it's been a while since April 5th when I had ranted about my day to day, well more like week to week. I'd like to say I was being lazy & not doing anything & just lost track of time, but I would be lying.

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2 Weeks Ago - Sadly, family affairs are still awry & I don't think that will let up anytime soon. I can only do so much to help out with this ongoing situation but I realize that I have to step up somewhere. I think it was a realization of the role I think I have to put myself in if not to only for my sake but to save & salvage what's left. It had been ongoing throughout the week. Somewhere along this process, I repaired my car doors so it is drive-able again. Learned about my family past, said farewell to 1 family member, more packing, looking for work, going to a monthly anime meeting & writing letters. Granted, I dunno if that sounds like a lot but it has been well a lot on my plate - did I mention I also became under the weather? Yep...so fun.

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1 Week Ago - Not too much has changed, other than recovering. I said farewell to another family member, packing, sorting, writing letters, getting phone calls, getting responses from places I did apply (no luck so far), meeting up with friends, hanging out with more family, attending a convention but working as a volunteer, revisiting my family past & near the end of that week it started to let up.

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Overall, my artwork output has been really low, been focusing on everything else, taking care of things & all that lovely stuff while trying to find work & taking care of some important family obligations. Granted since things have started to lighten up, I've been taking advantage of it while I can but I think I might over do it. Not quite sure.

Other than that, I've been watching a lot of new anime, including anime I have been recommended to watch & trying to establish a routine, having the occasional headache, not to mention clean up my room since it look like it is hit from a hurricane. Either way, I dunno I just feel stretched even though it doesn't seem like a lot is going on.

Either way, I need to take a step back, look, breathe & I dunno I still feel frazzled. I hope there's some good things coming my way.

Journal Meme 3 out of 3 - Tagless yet again ~

Taken from DarkDevil02 @ deviantART --

Rules
1. You must post the rules.
2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create 10 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
3. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
4. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
5. No tag backs
6. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this". You legitimately have to tag 10 people.

Questions:

1. What are you watching at the Moment?
Dusk Maiden of Amnesia - Episode 3.

2. Do you like Yu-Gi-Oh!?
Eh it's OK?

3. If you had the Chance to meet youre fave chara from an anime, who would it be?
only one!?
That one is tough.

4. How would your First Date would be like?
Like it's out of a t.v. show.

5. Do you like Cookies?!
I like cookies :o

6. And do you want to eat them right now?
Yes please.

7. Fave Color? ^^
Sapphire blue.

8. Haaaaaaaaaay wassuuuuuup~!?
Not much.

9. do you know pewdiepie and are you a bro?
O.o; no & no? Dx;

10. whats your real name? ^^
CherBear ~

11. do you like yugi?
Uh sure?

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I tag: no one  ... interesting tho I guess?

Journal Meme 2 out of 3 - Another Meme

Taken from Seoul-Mate @ deviantART --

.: Appearance :.
[X] You have Hair
[X] When you wake up,your hair gets messed up
[X] You have soft hair
[X] You have Brown eyes
[ ] You are over/around 5'7
[ ] You're skin gets pale when it's cold
[ ] You have zit/pimple free skin
[X] You have all your limbs.
[ ] You don't have dark spots on your skin
[ ] You don't have your ears pierced.

Total so far: 5

.: Favorites :.
[X] You like Animals
[X] Your favorite type of music is "Any but Country"
[X] Your favorite color is either Black,Red,Blue,Gold,Silver
[ ] You like FPS games (First Person Shooter)
[ ] You like Call of Duty
[ ] You like Halo
[X] You like Soul Eater.
[X] Your favorite Food is Spaghetti
[ ] You like the Cirque Du Freak series
[X] You like the wind/Breeze

Total so far: 11

.: Dislikes :.
[ ] You don't like Country music.
[ ] You don't like Romance movies.
[X] You don't like large group of people.
[ ] You don't like jeans.
[X] You don't like people who gloat waaaay to much.

Total so far: 13

.: Personality :.
[X] You act happy no matter what
[X] You're patient.
[X] You're way too Empathic/Forgiving.
[X] You usually don't show any emotion on your face
[X] You don't talk much

Total so far: 18

.: Hobbies :.
[X] You'd rather be playing games
[X] You like playing video games all the time
[ ] You like to read
[ ] You make up stories, but never write them.
[X] You think a lot, it even becomes a hobby.

Total so far: 21

.: Abilities :.
[ ] You Swim fast.
[ ] You can do parkor a bit
[X] You can hold your breathe over 1 minute
[ ] You can run a mile withought sweating
[X] You learn anything fast

Total so far: 23

.: You Have Never… :.
[ ] …Broken every bone
[ ] …Been to china
[X] …Held a gun
[ ] …Been bitten by a rabbit
[X] …Had an accident in your pants

Total so far: 25

.: Random :.
[X] Glowing things distract you.
[ ] You have an addiction for chewing gum
[ ] You and a friend have been mistaken for parent and children.
[X] You can make weird noises
[X] You are quick to think and can solve problems faster than others.

Total: 28

Multiply by 2 to get you percent
FINAL TOTAL: 56%


Not sure what that means?

Journal Meme 1 out of 3 - Another tagless tag

From AdmiralMaggot @ deviantART --

Rules:
1. You must post the rules.
2. Each person must post 6 things about themselves in their journal.
3. You have to choose 11 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
4. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
5. No tag backs.
6. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this". You legitimately have to tag 11 people

...
1)  I'm thoughtful when I wanna be.
2)  I enjoy sleeping.
3)  I tend to have weak moments.
4)  I dislike people who automatically  stereotype or judge something.
5)  I overthink situations.
6)  I miss someone very important to me.

Tags:
No tagging others, amuse yourself if you wish. :)

Journal Meme 2 out of 2 - A Tagless Meme

Taken from AdmiralMaggot @ deviantART -

Rules:
1. You must post these rules.
2. Answer the questions that the tagger set up for you, and create 10 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
3. You have to chose 10 people to tag and post there icons on your journal.
4.Go to their pages and tell them you have tagged her/him.
5.No tag backs.
6.No junk in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you're reading this." You have to tag 10 people.

Questions:
1. Did you ever dye your hair? If so, which color?
Blonde, lighter brown & red.
2. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes.
3. Coke or Pepsi? Or even some other kind of super alternative and rebellious brewage?
Pepsi.
4. Do you think, saying that manga are a genre, is legit?
I'd think so?
5. Has there ever been a book or comic adaptation as a movie, which you were satisfied with?
Eh not sure.
6. Do you think, that Disney will ruin the Star Wars franchise?
We'll see where that goes.
7. Did you ever play a Pokémon game? If so, which one(s)?
Yes, all of'em.
8. Do you like wearing costumes? (carnival and halloween count)
Depends on the costumes.
9. Do you have a drivers license?
Yes.
10. Remember remember, the 5th of November. Everybody knows the Guy Fawkes maskes, that Anonymus and Cosplayers like to wear. So, hands down, did you read the V for Vendetta comic or did you just saw the bland movie?
Neither.

No taggings, no additional questions - feel to answer these peculiar ones. :)

Journal Meme 1 out of 2 - 100 Questions

Taken from Seoul-Mate @ deviantART -

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I fell.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Posters & wall scrolls.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I've been told I have.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Varies.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Early morning.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Uhm hmm money :o!

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Missed opportunities.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My memkey /flash drive - has all my drawing, artwork etc. & my photos.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'3"

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
A teeny bit.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Not really, unless I'm sleepy.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Family relative.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Not really sure.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Any eye color is cool but apparently I'm a sucker for blue.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
At the right place & time.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Energy drink.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Everything please.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Steak.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Blue.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
I don't recall my first meaningful gift, I'm a sentimental for everything apparently.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Sounds painful.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Not sure.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Stuff that covers me? Cool

[Hey look, missing questions - wheres 25~29?]

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"I reject your reality & replace it with my own."

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
San Diego

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yes.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Like I'd share that, people would start using that against me.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Creator of the Simpsons, some celebrities & that's it.

37. FIRST JOB?
Housekeeper.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yep.

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Yep.

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Sorting through my messages.

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Nope.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My eyes.

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
No.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Money?

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
Ideally 3. I won't share any names tho. :)

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
A mix of my mom & dad's name.

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Stupidity, ignorance & shallowness.

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Memories from there.

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Head & Shoulder's 2 in 1.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Not really.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Buying multiple of things.

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
No.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Sure.

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS
Hum what?

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
No, not at all.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Write, listen to music, draw.

58.WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS.
Lose.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Too many to list.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
more than 60+

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
Eh, love & hate.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Sarcasm is dead online. :)

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Can't choose.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Realistically open minded & thoughtful.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Only CherBear ;)

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Telepathy / telekinesis.

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
At the moment, Doctor Who *yay for new season!*

69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Ignore & move on.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Cake batter.

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
I hope so.

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Yes, 2.

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
Not really.

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
I'd like to stay here.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Up to them.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Adam & Drew Show Podcast.

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Arnold Palmer.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My cousin.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Eyes.

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Draw.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Don't wanna hate anything :)!

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Fall.

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Ferror Rocher

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD(or have) A BEST FRIEND?
At one point, yes.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Dark brown/black.

86. EYE COLOR?
Brown.

87. SHOE SIZE?
7 1/2

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Jack in the Box.

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Slater's 50/50

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Yes.

91. WATCH TV TODAY?
Already did.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Not any particular day.

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Piano.

94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Does it matter?

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Both.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Food.

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
Hmm what?

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
No books at the moment.

100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Unpredictable.

CherBear's Aspirations: April 2013

The start of April is already here - I can't believe 5 days has gone by. I honestly do not know where the time goes.

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First off, I do apologize for the lacking enthusiasm that has been dwindling as we all go further into the year. Ironically, life has a funny way of waking someone up & having them realize the situation around them. Not going completely into it but some seriously heavy agendas had come up near the end of the month days after my reflections & aspirations of February / March. It hit close to home & had me think about the situation at hand & the situation as a whole. Seeing where I have found myself in; I realize there has some steps to be made, time to make amends & step up. This feels all a bit daunting considering I don't know if I'm really ready & if I have fully healed too. This now on top of wanting to further progress in my life not only financially but hopefully artistically too.

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Either way; I hope to pick back up with all my art, work on the projects I do have lined up, not to mention requests, get back with pending messages I haven't answered yet & that lingering commission. Frankly, I haven't followed through due to the fact that my printer/scanner has still been on the fritz. I looked at it today after trying to print out something & well, it didn't work out so well. Maybe if I do manage to get commissions; I'd get a new printer/scanner for myself hah!

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My convention season is coming soon, I am starting to get back with groups to see if they need volunteer help. Hopefully my 3yrs over at one convention will help the other conventions I look forward to getting involved in.

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So much to do & I need to hopefully catch up with everything this weekend. Wish my luck! I look forward to recapping the end of this month.