Subtle Hints from the Universe...

I'm pretty sure if this had captions, this would be the universe subtly hinting at me...

Perhaps I'm pretty oblivious...

Time & time again I've been complimented for the artwork I've done. I admit, I usually deny it because I see so many other artists who impress me that I have a bit of an inferiority complex. So seeing some other artist a little part of me is like "I'm no where as good as that guy..." ><'! Of course I never verbally say that out loud because I always seem to answer the world with a sweet smile.

Some folks say I'm out to fish for compliments but in all reality, I have a low opinion regardless of whatever I do. Maybe its really a bad flaw that I don't give myself the actual credit I do deserve. From artwork exhibit A to artwork exhibit B, I have always strive on improvement.

Now a new challenge is in the horizon...

I've been ping ponging back & forth the idea of starting a web comic or a manga or whatever.

Believe it or not, this would probably be another attempt if I do another one again, simple breakdown of the list in no particular order:

1. City of Heroes comic - a mock of circle & squares during a day by day game play. Did technically one but oddly stopped afterwards
2. A day to day comic - kinda a day to day ongoing of my life in real life at one point. Did a few...no idea where they went.
3. Audition comic - based of the game Audition online that I did about 1...maybe 2 years ago? I did the equivalent of 4 segments before stopping.
4. Concept comic - a comic that never really launched but it was based off a unique perspective. Not going into it but me & a couple of others went through the trouble of designing the characters & discussing storyline concepts. Never really got to do any actual because due to irl priorities that had me stop meeting up with friends, eventually that project was dropped.

These all have been done, the City of Heroes & Audition one were made public, the other two were private projects too. I've stopped playing City of Heroes for quite a while so there's no reason to venture back to that. Audition, I had revealed at least the 'Prologue' chapter. There were an actual total of 4 including the prologue, 3 were shown to close friends, the 4th never really made it out into the public light. I imagine I've had other ideas but these are the top 4 that did come to mind & the ones that went through the actual thought process or have been made on a whim.

So its funny...because folks say my artwork is decent not to mention I've gotten support by my apparent 'fans of my artwork' that if I actually went into an official endeavor of something of this magnitude, I'd have readers & followers. The question is...how far would it go? I think from these past examples, it also has shown that I easily fizzle out fast, especially if I get preoccupied with something else, whether its a video game, a side drawing project or just real life in general that takes precedence.

I firmly believe that if I have the drive - for me to do a web comic based on a story or concept I enjoy, the support & encourage might make it all happen. It is just trying to bypass the initial intimidation that I might be doing it alone & it would be such a huge project that I ultimately may throw away to the way-side. Which makes me consider, wonder & ask, those who have done it solely on themselves, how did they do it? How were they able to manage something like this?

Hopefully there might be answers for those sets of questions out there, for now, idle planning & who knows...maybe I might take that leap of faith & sincerely try.