CherBear's Thoughts: Oct 2017 + Apr 2018

Hello all!

This is a fair warning, this'll be a fairly long wall of text mainly because I will be covering what's been going down since September 2017, so....October 2018 'til the end of this April. I'll try to make this interesting for the most part.

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Gaming - I think I had been spending enough free time just wandering around dancing games. Whether it was Touch, Love Dance, Dance On or Audition it's been that constant rotation. Not that I didn't mind that for the past few months it's been fun. Especially meeting people who have recognized my artwork that I run to in-game who've told me they've always liked my artwork. Honestly - those are always the more heart warming moments that fuels me to continue to do what I do. Now, I also do bounce around other games World of Tanks, I haven't been on in a hot minute, World of Warships, not really either BUT, after a 2 year hiatus - I've managed to make my way back to World of Warcraft once again. Now, I'm kinda laughing to myself because I'm 2 expansions behind and was trying so very hard not to get back into it but I caved in. It kinda piled into a lot of reconnecting to a lot of people from there that I hadn't spoken to in that time span. Honestly, I'm rather glad I managed to because I do realize how much I've missed their friendship and remind myself how awful of a friend I had been - I'd like to hope I can blame life but...let's be honest...probably isn't the case. On another offhand note...I have Pokemon Ultra Moon...I swear I'll eventually play through it. The other mobile games? I play when I can of course.

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Art - So, I've been entirely busy with commissions. I've managed to get back down to 2 active commissions from 10 slots but I am fueled by my 2018 new year's resolution to meet my obligations whether its commissions, requests or such to be done one way or another. Regardless - it's been a good driving force. I've also been able to keep within a structured schedule - its now starting to show some promise these several months in but I won't hold too much into it; it's good to feel busy.

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Life - So this'll be hard to properly format this without me going into tangents.

October: Perhaps the most memorable part was definitely Halloween. Granted I had been tasked to giving out candy it's been great to see all these trick or treaters. Did I do my lil candy game? Of course, not as many winners though it also feels like that there wasn't as many trick or treaters either.

November - January: So the holiday season I will wrap it up; it was pretty good granted kinda kept to myself. I tried to attend family functions but the timing really didn't work out well. Regardless; I was definitely thankful to make into the new year. I did come to a new, new year's resolutions: try to meet my art obligations.

February: This was kind of a lull month. I had a good Valentine's day but I had start planning for next month since I knew it was going to be busy.

March-April: So fast forward - end of the month, I ended up going to WonderCon for a few days under odd circumstances. It wasn't too bad - I got to meet up w/ my cousins in LA. BABS Con was pretty good granted it was a couple of days - saw a bit of the convention & got to roam around the Bay Area once again.

Overall: I've been internally stressed but its due to a lot of irl issues starting to bombard me & I realize I gotta hope to hit some major strides if I'm gonna meet some end goals the end of this year - what would that be? Moving out to a new place; I will spare the details but its just been something that's been entertained for quite awhile & with how things are going - I'm hoping to meet it. Thankfully there hasn't been no electronic issues on my end...not yet at least but please, let me not jinx it. TV has been a good time sink. I was internally considering Netflix but opted for WoW.

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Social Media - Has been maintained for the most part. I try to keep them updated when I can.

Youtube channel - other than my weekly tuesday Art Rewind ; past art livestream post. I'm revisiting other livestreams that were post, they might be reposted again due to issues I'm running into.

FB page: [ www.facebook.com/cherbearsketchbook ] - everything has usually been posted every Tuesday or Friday when I can, hopefully more than just videos since the queue on my dA has posted finished artwork instead of WIPs.

DA: With MiloBear's help - I've extended my premium to another year. I totally appreciate that since I'm more active on here vs other art gallery websites. I'll continue to post old WIP livestream SS but hopefully more finished works that I had done.

By all means; check the other links to see what's been updated, usually things are posted daily, if not, Tuesdays and Friday for sure.

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For now thanks for reading this lil bear rant, be sure to check out my twitter [ twitter.com/LilCherBear ] for any up-to-date agendas, such as livestream announcements, random thoughts & such or my instagram [ instagram.com/lilcherbear/ ] for some views of my SoCal life, food & art.

CherBear's Thoughts: August + September 2017

 Some youtube livestream madness

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NuTQor2MmdE

Hello all!

September rolled around & the month is going by pretty fast - next thing I know; it's more than half way through the month! Regardless of how hectic it is, attempting to make some time to talk about what's been going on.

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Game wise - not much; I've been playing more Audition Online than Touch still on occasion some Love Dance and Dance On, but past that, I've been drawing too but keeping busy in general.

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Laptop has been fine, been keeping the other one away just in case if the one I'm currently using decides to go nuts. It hasn't thankfully but I don't wanna start jinxing that.

I have been still eyeing prospects of a drawing tablet & a regular tablet but its not within the immediate domain of what I need.

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Past that I've been traveling to various places for one thing or another, whether its family obligations or whimsical moments. Regardless - been looking to find something more stable & lucrative while functioning around a set schedule for myself; this keeps me ever so busy.

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As for my youtube channel [ https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSkM6Yvkf4z-psS4gE2cq4A/videos?sort=dd&view=0&shelf_id=0 ] - been commencing on posting once a week, been fairly consistent but I'm not gonna jinx it yet. I want to see how things will be after going through it for at least 3 months before I can confidently say I've been keeping at it. There's been more subscribers which has been motivating me bit by bit also, I hit over 100 likes on my FB page: [ www.facebook.com/cherbearsketchbook ].

Here's a run down of past videos posted since the last journal:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vAe0h6MuIqc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PjTdrCf7lNw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScW19KtuybQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTv_j0YJ6Lk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqaXRWJsKoY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGWZghotFdw

With a set schedule; I've been dedicating the time to get what should be done in order to further promote my artwork. Whether its to queue more stuff due to what I did on livestream, what artwork I did manage to finish during livestream & showing off past livestreams of what I am doing. I intended to continue & so far I've disciplined myself to keep at it - so I hope this will lead to other possibilities of what I do want to do. Not to mention revisiting other styles I had not concentrated on & ultimately as an artist show the full extent of what I am capable of.

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My fall shows are coming back - I do wanna eventually check out all the fuss of all the other shows everyone had been fussing about [ GoT, TWD, hell even anime! ] but one step at a time. I'd hate to binge & internally regret it later.

For now thanks for reading this lil bear rant, be sure to check out my twitter [ https://twitter.com/LilCherBear ] for any up-to-date agendas, such as livestream announcements, random thoughts & such or my instagram [ instagram.com/lilcherbear/ ] for some views of my SoCal life, food & art.

CherBear's Thoughts: July + August 2017

Hello all, a couple of days into August & goodness its humid in my area!

I wrapped up my thoughts of San Diego Comic Con & I think Anime Expo? Either way I'll cover up any final thoughts from both that I've noticed this year.

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Game wise - not much; I've been playing more Audition Online than Touch but occasionally Love Dance, Pokemon Go & Sailor Moon Drops , but past that - this humid weather can make anyone seriously lazy.

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My room fan died; so in response, I got myself a desk fan & a new room fan, least to say the room now is a lil more breezy but after Comic-Con, need to reorganize my room a bit. Started off on a good foot; delivered 4 non-functioning box fans, 2 vaccuums & a bag of batteries that were leaking alkaline to a proper waste facility. 

So my shirts, the 1st two I went through one place are still in tact, BUT my jacket got damage due to heat weather so I may look into getting one again but not right away....have you seen the weather? One shirt I got done day of got damaged from heat & usage unfortunately; a place to go to if you want something done day of but long term wise I just need to find a better place to print my own designs.. 

I'm still in a bit of a convention time slot schedule, sleeping in a lil earlier [ can probably blame the ongoing Pokemon Go event in hunt of legendary pokemon heh... ] but eating rather normally & reasonable portions ... how weird is that. My general thoughts of both main conventions is simply this: those who went for the first time are obviously overwhelmed & lost, not that we're blaming strictly attendees, seemed like staff & volunteer alike were a bit disjointed on directing lost attendees to where they need to go [ more so w/ AX vs SDCC ] & past that both were enjoyable as long as you were not committing to the idea of seeing that certain panel but keeping that flexibility.

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I had taken a 1 week hiatus after SDCC to decompress & recover, in the process - during a get together; had one of those lil moments of being thanked as an artist yet again [ not the first time ] for inspiring them & it was just reaffirming my passion & conviction for creating to continue to inspire others to continue to be creative in any way shape or form.

Within my hiatus, I had come to a conclusion of attempting to start my schedule habit for the week; not only to attempt to be more consistent but get into a regular routine of sorts.

So what is this schedule you say? 

Sunday - Free day
Monday - Free day
Tuesday - Social Media posts & maintenance [ includes a weekly Youtube video posted of past livestreams ]
Wednesday - Livestream [ afternoon 4pm-12am ]
Thursday - Video Editing 
Friday - Social Media posts & upkeep 
Saturday - Livestream [ mornings 3am - 6am & afternoon 12pm - 3pm ]

This is my ideal goal mainly because I feel its attempting to keep something steady instead of being all over the place. This will only change if something comes up that is beyond my control.

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No new videos since but I will be working on uploading more since I realize I am running out of videos!

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Past that; will see where the rest of August will entail for me - gonna continue to attempt to be back on track so to speak. Hopefully ya'll find all these mash of thoughts interesting for this month. Thanks for reading!

CherBear's Thoughts: SDCC 2017

So I will keep this short & simple mainly because I'll be discussing about San Diego Comic Con in a nutshell. New thoughts will be covered by next month including a schedule I've been meaning to implement until a change of pace in my lifestyle happens if or when that does.

So ...

Overall: My thoughts on SDCC 2017 was fun. Always stressful because having to deal with shuffling through easily 160k+ in attendance [ max @ 130k+ at the convention center ] but my group this year was more or less 3ppl so it wasn't stressful compared to prior years where I had a lot of ppl. Not to mention; I think I managed to cover more of the exhibitor floor then compared to years before.

Preview Night: Made a simple goal to touch Hall A's wall to Hall H's wall & I did. I was able to snap a bit of pictures but caught some celebs wandering the hall too which was cool. Lingered as long as I could even after the floor closed & there was so much room. Either way; even tho it was a late start into preview night, made it worthwhile.

Day 1: 1st day out of 4 where I took time to volunteer my time back into the con but in-between all that I scoped the floor most of the time. I think it was something I did actually miss doing even tho it seems like there's more & more people - but overall I tried to experience looking into every part of the con while I can.

Day 2: I think this was solo mode. I got to really people watch but spend time on the floor too. I think the nice part about this whole experience was the fact I was parking underneath the convention. So all my food & snacks were there so I wasn't exactly paying crazy prices of convention food.

Day 3: A more lazy day persay I was hanging out at the Masquerade line helping out some other friends who had came for that day to check out the con. Holding line position but I did manage to check out a fan panel & peek into the convention albeit briefly. I also did manage to catch Masquerade too.

Day 4: Last day & it didn't feel like it was dragging out. Went to the floor but spent more time around the volunteer area finishing up my time there. I had lots of fun. Granted it seemed a lil disjointed with misdirection, managing to help some lost people get around SDCC 2017 too either way. I look forward to next year since dates were dropped even before SDCC 2017 started & that's all I have to say about that.

CherBear's Thoughts: May + June + July 2017

Hello all!

It's been awhile - I haven't been posting over a month well my thoughts at least. Guess I've been busy but I will hopefully wrangle my thoughts the day of Preview Night of San Diego Comic Con 2017 so here we go!

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Game wise - not much; I've been playing more Audition Online than Touch, but past that, I've been drawing more too.

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Laptop wise; both are functioning fine - though I have a feeling I might need to look at getting a new tablet cuz my tablet malfunctioned yesterday but after proper restarting my laptop. Things seem to be okay for now - tho looking @ new tablets - low end I'm probably looking at $70.

In the process, I created & printed out 3 shirts w/ my artwork & met an announcement deadline. Pulled a lot of close calls but regardless - just glad its all out of the way & I'm ready for SDCC2017.

Other than that...oh! I went to Anime Expo 2017...did I mention that? Haha I enjoyed my time there for one day.

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I picked up my badge, got my food, snacks & drinks ready & all set to see how SDCC2017 will go. The group I'm going with is considerably smaller but its okay. I just look forward to the memories then after that...my schedule looks uncertain as I need to shift focus on other things.

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As for my youtube channel [ https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSkM6Yvkf4z-psS4gE2cq4A/videos?sort=dd&view=0&shelf_id=0 ] - been posting once a week, been running a lil late on some weeks but trying to keep it consistent. There's been more subscribers which has been motivating me bit by bit also, I'm nearing 100 likes on my FB page: [ https://www.facebook.com/cherbearsketchbook ].

Here's a run down of past videos posted since the last journal:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EQi0p-1ixE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HtLgaNSl_4A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2V5n57vXZI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgJiLUlC7wk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYeYejEVLdo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8of9qpd2P5Y

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42yyKa2HdSM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riZzw4hr33o

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_qWWN4Pp_c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BBw9gXNfb5c

I have a few more videos I can post up so I can goof off on not ending for a couple of more weeks but not too long or I won't have anymore to post on youtube...so hopefully I won't fall into that habit.

Also, posted enough artwork on deviantART to get me past SDCC2017 so rest assured there's at least that, will need to set aside time to make sure that's done.

As for my social media outlets...I will figure that out.

Either way, I'm looking to do a more solid schedule depending where things will go after SDCC2017.

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I'll try to recap my thoughts for each day but no promises.

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I'm sure I'm missing more but that just shows how much my mind has been all over the place. Will power through July then will see how August & afterwards will be.

For now thanks for reading this lil bear rant, be sure to check out my twitter [ https://twitter.com/LilCherBear ] & instagram [ instagram.com/lilcherbear/ ] for all the pics & thoughts of what's going on over at SDCC2017 while I'm there. Who knows, you might just find me...ciao for now!

CherBear's Thoughts: April + May 2017

Hello everyone -

I had planned to write out my thoughts for this month yesterday; I'm just not sure where my time went with that. Either way; guess it makes today a double post which is fine. Better to do this sooner than completely forget for this month.

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So not much to say in terms of game wise; still in the same rotation of games but now also playing Touch ironically enough. It almost felt like it was a forced moment but either way; there's some cute gaming moments in there but past that I haven't played frequently, its just a different pace to all the other games I had been playing.

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As for my laptop, my Alienware returned & I don't mind. It's good & had been puttering around on there for a bit. Fixing settings & will attempt to livestream on there some time to see how it goes. Other than that; things have gotten slow but I've also been attempting to be semi-productive w/ working on artwork, commissions and such too since it looks like my plans for this month will definitely slow down.

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Ongoing steps forward artistic wise. I have continued to post videos on my youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSkM6Yvkf4z-psS4gE2cq4A . Still gotta edit when I can while livestream when I do. Here's some other videos posted:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66sR8oNFyuc&t=15s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2xeNkLAdOGQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g5rLV_AACM0

I had also been posting more artwork to be queued when I don't look at my deviantART. I in theory have things posted until July - I still have more to post up as usual. Rest assured you'll continue to see more stuff from me throughout this year. As long as I keep at it [encouragement is always a plus ;) lol].I continue to attempt to play catch up on every other social outlet fairly soon but give it time - if I remember to haha ~ cuz I'm not sure where my time is at. :(.

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Either way I feel fortunate for now but always feel like I can be doing more or wanting to do so much more. So I continue to venture forward into 2017 optimistic.Thank you for listening to a lil art bear's rant.

CherBear's Thoughts: March + April 2017

Hello everyone - 

 Hopefully it hasn't been too long since my last rant. I think when things start to slow down; I manage to find a groove but I'm not sure how long this lull will last BUT I am trying to get a few things done just in case - worse case scenario; I end up being busy for the next year or not. Either way - plenty to discuss perhaps.

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So I will save the lengthy stuff for last which is plenty of art related stuff & start with gaming first. Other than my hiatus on most of my games. I had posted up to date which games I'm currently active on - on a mmo scale; which is Love Dance Mobile & Audition. In-between all of that, my lil bit of indulgence so to speak has been Yandere Simulator. Granted it is still in a debug build phase, it's been a fun lil game to putter around & try.

- Yandere Simulator: Why? Why not? I had been seeing lil youtube videos of other people's gameplay & I admit, I was a bit intrigued. Finally; after awhile I managed to download and try the game. So far I've liked it & tried some of the things I had seen online and it been enjoyable.

- Love Dance: Recently I had gotten back into the game after my initial introduction by @Oddbrother ; it has been proven fairly interesting because since its a mobile game - its something more easily accessible on my day to day on the go.

- Audition Online [Redbana]: Oh goodness, its technically coming on 8 years for Redbana & a total of 10yrs [11yrs including beta] for the game on the North America server overall. I'd like to do something [maybe finally collab with Shoo if we can squeeze in the time] for it but I can't make definite promises this early on.

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Life ongoing; my poor Alienware laptop had finally kaput. I had sent it to a friend sometime in March to look into what was wrong & he told me ultimately in the end the motherboard died. So I gave permission to get it to functional but least to say I'm definitely appreciative [and owe him so much]. Why when I have a current laptop [and pretty much has better specs?] ... one word, sentimentality that I've had for it for 9yrs. What do I have purpose wise for it after all the repairs? A back up to my current laptop just in case...cuz knowing my luck.

Past that; I've been keeping busy, going out, trying out new recipes & been trying to plot out my plans properly. After my inner realization that I'm all over the place; not good - I gotta try to focus. I also am looking to try to find stable work after July realistically. So here's hoping. Other than that, I had sold my old truck finally; got it working & proof that its working so it was sold for a decent reasonable price. There's been birthdays, hanging out with family & friends...whew, as I said. I feel like I've been pulled around everywhere.

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As you have noticed; I've been taking steps forward somewhere artistic wise. I have set up my youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSkM6Yvkf4z-psS4gE2cq4A & had posted my first video. I still have plenty uploaded that I'm planning to post once a week but it doesn't mean I shouldn't be contiuing with video editing & uploading past livestreams - so no worries; its kinda a experiment to see where that goes. 

I look to fulfill this 'creator' itch by attempting to finish some designs to make & order all before uhm realistically in July. I think that's reasonable but we'll see.

I had been posting more artwork to be queued when I don't look at my deviantART. I in theory have things posted until June - I still have more to post up [ a lot of artwork done for Pacific PonyCon 2017 ] but apparently you can post at most 90 days out from the current day [ thanks uh core membership? ]. Rest assured you'll continue to see more stuff from me throughout this year. As long as I keep at it [encouragement helps ;) lol].

I also have been dabbling in sending some personal artwork out to friends & furthering out my options long term wise.

I look to catch every other social outlet fairly soon but give it time - if I remember to haha.

Will I be busy? I can't faithfully answer that until May. 

So...you can probably guess I do have plenty on my mind.

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Either way I feel fortunate for now but always feel like I can be doing more or wanting to do so much more. So I continue to venture forward into 2017 optimistic.

Thank you for listening to a lil art bear's rant. You may hear from me again hopefully by the end of this month.