CherBear's Reflections: April 2012

It feels like an unproductive month to say the least...in terms of artwork & everything due to real life circumstances that are taking priorities first. I won't delve into that too much but other than stressing over the little things due to the fact I have every reason to stress over the little things in the first place. There's been good & bad things that happened this past month though but I am taking things in stride & trying to keep a happy outlook on life.

I'll perhaps elaborate more if feelings allow me to do such. So let's see...

I've reached a plateau of realization that I need to move on from my current position & not dwell over the past 4 years of my life due to a hard tragic loss in my life. I admit, I got a little too comfortable & stayed stagnant by choice because life was consistent the past 4 years w/ unforeseen possibilities that maybe, just maybe life would get a little difficult & that would not be by choice or be within my control by any means. I miss the little things such as freedom to make choices w/o having to answer to anyone, move about a living area as I please -- in short, having roommates can be a bit cumbersome. Oh no...don't get me wrong, they're good company & fulfill a part of loneliness in life that can effect any person but prior to when living somewhat alone it was nice to abide by my own rules, set my own circumstances & have that kind of freedom to do as such -- a little selfish of me? Maybe ... but can you necessarily blame me? I'd like to think no. So hence, this unproductive month has strive me to find something to better my life situation where maybe, just maybe I can find what I lost long ago -- if it means slowing down on my initial passion, so be it...like I said in a tweet not too long ago -- I miss my sketchbook.

In the in-between of this search & artwork projects, I've embarked on a little challenge. Ever since my remorse of not claiming those two adorable 12 week old pugs (and now finding 2 4 week old pugs), I refocused my efforts on my 8yr old shih tzu/chi mix -- short story, prior owner & circumstances have accumulated about 4 years of bad habits, some neglect & common day to day daily routines that have been instilled into this pup that I have unknowingly inherited since living here. She's grown a strong pack & attachment mentality w/ us for some strange reason over everyone else in the household. Her prior owner comes by on occasion but they've already moved on, having adopted a new puppy who in their eyes is smarter, trained & well behaved & disowned their prior w/ harsh criticism & feeling their last dog was to say kindly, a failure. A rescue of some sorts w/ this now 8yr old shih tzu/chi mix, I did my fair research & challenged to see if this pup who's well into her middle age years & see if she can outshine her half sister that has replaced her. Not only is this for myself & my 8yr old pup, but for future reference of personal satisfaction of whether or not, foreseeing future pups under my care are cared for & trained properly. Rest assured, this isn't excuse to replace a need of having a kid but I personally see this as an achievement of a short term goal. On the note of kids? A pleasing thought but something much later down the line whenever I pass this plateau. How is the training going so far? About two weeks into the method of clicker training the 8yr old pup - sit, lay down & stay  are works in progress but have been proven to gotten through to her & I try on a day to day basis depending on weather, to reward her by going out on short walks.

Joys - I'll sum these up as much as possible.

- I've been adamantly watching Legend of Korra, 4 episodes in & I have liked where this is going so far. Regardless of the nay say & those who are, as I'd like to say 'core' Avatar: The Last Airbender fanatics who dislike this follow up, I've appreciated the progression of 70yrs down the line after Aang's story played through & how it focuses on this generation's pending problems & plights the main female protagonist Korra is going through. Though it is early on - its fun speculating the possibilities & inter-relating it to ATLA series & where this is going.

- Desktop: Is up & functioning. My friend who originally built my desktop finally had some time to come over to install the power supply that had died out on me. Thankfully it was just only the power supply & it didn't kill anything else on my desktop. With funds being tight I'd hate to solely rely on my laptop.

Other than that, celebrated a family relative's birthday - saw some other family I hadn't seen in a while. Saw more family too. Enjoyed Easter. After a somewhat 1 month long hiatus on Audition, myself & Milo had come around to see how things are even though a good majority of us have been running around Azeroth, smashing things up.

Woes - I'll sum these up too.

Other than the plateau of where my life is at, funds have been getting tighter too so the attempt to better the situation is a work in process & seeing where it sticks.

Buyer's remorse on 2 12 week old puppies that are free to go to a good home & now finding 2 4 week old pugs that are free to go to a good home & can't claim'em.

Desktop is acting funny but being clever I'm fixing the situation (thank you laptop for finding online solutions).

Anyways, a positive outlook on May & the countdown to San Diego Comic Con starts now.

I'm 36% Furry

From YumiCatGirl @ deviantART -- 

[ ] you meow/bark to get attention (trololol, like a fat cat XDDD)

[ ] you find pets toys amusing

[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip

[x] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food

[ ] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you

[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection

[ ] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back

Total: 2

[ ] you love to be scratched behind the ear

[x] you love fish/meat

[ ] you like to stick your head out through the window of a moving car (The wind  Btw-it feels good to stick your feet outside too :3)

[x] you like when people pet your head

[ ] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper

[x] you think feathers are fun to play with

Total: 5

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime

[ ] you enjoy scaring birds

[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them (No XDDD)

[ ] you bite people if they annoy you

[ ] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours (Heehee >:3)

[ ] milk or water is your favorite drink

Total: 6

[ ] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it

[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it

[x] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit

[ ] you enjoy long walks in the park

[ ] you meow/bark when you see something you want

Total: 7

[ ] you call your hands and feet "paws"

[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about

[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk

[x] you really enjoy cuddling (Waaaaah <333 X3)

[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up

[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around

Total: 11

[ ] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep

[ ] you meow or bark very often (I make a lot of weird noises when I get scared and I enjoy meowing like a fat cat XDDD)

[x] you hide when you get scared

[ ] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house

[ ] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand

[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot (Heehee ^^'')

[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat

Total: 13

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it

[x] you refer to yourself as an animal (We humans are animals DDD)

[x] your username has something to do with animals

[x] your e-mail has something to do with animals

[ ] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better (The wound feels better and blood tastes good :3)

[ ] you look for edible stuff often

Total: 17

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time

[ ] you like to say hi to strangers

[ ] you like to be petted when you have done something good

[ ] people think you act like a pet

[ ] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like

[ ] you like to eat grass

[ ] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water

Total: 18

Final total: 18

Take your score and multiply it by 2

Put your title as "I'm _% Furry"

A road to recovery

So I hadn't been posting nor doing much for the past four days - unfortunately feeling weak took its toll this month. I ended up resting & recovering. It doesn't help that even tho I'm still in the midsts of it but it doesn't help that I'm stressed too with a lot of things going on in life that may potentially have me stop drawing altogether since real life priorities come first too.  Even though I am starting to feel a bit better now, I'm getting back to my usual routine while trying to get my life priorities fixed since I can only do so much.

Other than that, with the status on my dead desktop - I scrounged up money for a new power source & I hope that's the only thing that needs to be fixed. I don't think I have much more to do any additional upgrades.

Unfortunately - I've been bitten by puppy fever again. I just find cavaliers & pugs just absolutely adorable. Not to mention corgis as well. Don't get me wrong, I adore my 8yr old shih tzu / chihuahua mix but I think it'd be nice if she has company since she can no longer have puppies. Oh well - on top of my very limited time schedule, I should just pro'ally bite my lip & see if I can manage to obedience train her properly.

Last but not least - I ended up luckily catching the new world premier of the Legend of Korra. Two episodes in & I'm intrigued to see where the creators are going with Korra. I shall continue to eagerly watch every Saturday.

CherBear's Aspirations: April 2012

Greetings! Here comes April -

Personal thoughts:

I've been going through buyer's remorse. Still reminiscing on obtaining to adorable pug puppies (for free), basically everything you can possibly ask for (potty trained, spayed etc.) but my landlord is I guess...against it. Why? Cuz I already have a 8yr old shih tzu/chihuaha mix (that  had somewhat was inherited to me) & my reasonable / logical thinking is 1) my 8yr old is still young & energetic enough to teach & mother them before she gets too old to be apathetic & slothy (like what happened w/ a prior pomeranian & pug). Rest assured, I would've dedicated my time to train all 3 of them cuz they would be my responsibility (not to mention my idle status). I mentioned it to a few other folks & they're like 'dude, that's a really good deal & opportunity.' considering people sell these puppies for like $150+ a piece (yes, I know, the *right* thing to do is to adopt from an animal shelter) & I'm thinking in the back of my head '...gee y'think?' The main question is, do I do the right thing & abide to the decision or do the wrong thing & just get them anyways? Eh, I'm torn but I think it's just a matter of the fact folks saying it's a good deal & opportunity so hence the buyer's remorse? Or is it some sort of other buyer thing ... either way. I *know* this is a golden opportunity that I won't run into again. I guess I should try to convince myself that this is for the best.

Another deal is that big lottery jackpot that 3ppl won. Granted, yes, there's the horror stories of one should never win the lottery due to the hazard & effects of it afterwards but it doesn't hurt to dream (not to mention pay off debts & fully dedicate myself into my  artwork) but I think that's more of a yearly thing w/ those golden opportunities. Who knows, maybe I may be lucky & get the opportunity to fulfill that dream (and get those pugs!) & not worry so much 'bout money issues.

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Artwork projects:

I'm perhaps pushing some of my ongoing stuff to figure out a neat little celebration card for Redbana. It is always fun to participate in these kind of things cuz it gives me a chance to output my creative side & the slight plausibility of winning something out of it. Other than that, I'm slowly trudging through the rest of my requests & posting them when I can. Thank you for your patience & understanding considering of all the weird & unfortunate laptop problems I had suffered that delayed a lot of my work.

Eventually -- I would like to go through with my collaboration story/comic with Milo once we figure out the last of the kinks. I'm already gathering a small feedback group to read the story & make any suggestions. So far, it's been all positive & progressive with some of the people I have discussed 1 on 1 about.

Livestream is usually every Saturday, depending on this Saturday, I may hold it really late or really early depending on how things are. (I won't be talking this time around...sorry!) As I promised last Saturday, I will be taking requests (all sketches).

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Anyways, I continue to look at this month with a positive outlook & with Easter coming around - we all realize, oh dear ... it's spring?! Ciao for now!

CherBear's Reflections: Mar. 2012

The end of March is quickly approaching - time for some reflections on what happened this month.

Livestream - I've been attempting to be a little more diligent about broadcasting every Saturday & providing a little commentary. It's been fun chatting with close friends while drawing & listening to music. I'll try to hold more sessions whenever I can since things have been slowing down just a little.

Convention season - With conventions going on. I am sorta reluctant to not have reasonable companions to come with me. So unfortunately, I missed out on Wondercon & Anime Conji. There's always next year, so here's hoping. The remaining I am looking forward to is AM2, Anime Expo & Comic Con in June-July.

Commissions / Requests / Drawings - I've been doing more fan work when I can. I took up my sketchbook & ended up drawing a little more. It helps along with livestream sessions that I have a lot artwork to show for a teeny bit. Not to mention with my scanner finally working - I'm able to scan again so I can get the other pending requests.

So overall - it hasn't been too bad. Granted there was a lil minor health scare that left me dizzy & weak, I've recovered from that. Unfortunately, my desktop is still out of commission until I can get ahold of my friend who had built it to come by & see what's wrong before we end up buying what we need to replace whatever bad parts there are on the desktop. April is quickly approaching & I'm still trying to stay positive. Hopefully my laptop won't go through any hard hiccups. There's a few but it hasn't been too bad. Easter is quickly approaching, must stay positive, gotta try to stay positive.

Strange something something ...

From Godzilla1802 @ deviantART:

[ ] - Your mother has more than 2 children.
[ ] - You are a smoker.
[ ] - You drink a lot.
[ x ] - You like to write.
[ x ] - You are religious.
[ x ] - You like to burn candles.
[ ] - You prefer juice or water over soda.
[ x ] - You have ridden a horse.

TOTAL SO FAR = 4

[ ] - You have done drugs.
[ ]- You are currently a drug addict.
[ x ] - You are very artistic.
[ x ] - You like stuffed animals.
[ x ] - You are attracted to shiny things.
[ ] - You have eaten a bug before.
[ ] - You love cars.
[ ] - Cats are your favourite animal.
[ ] - You hate animals.
[ x ] - You are spontaneous and random.

TOTAL SO FAR = 8

[ x ] - You like fruit a lot.
[ x ] - You drive.
[ x ] - You make / made good grades in school.
[ x ] - You are going / are in / have been to college.
[ ] - You like for things to be very clean.
[ x ] - You are very messy.
[ x ] - You love to eat.
[ ] - Christmas is your favorite holiday.
[ x ] - You like the beach.
[ ] - You hate the color pink.

TOTAL SO FAR = 15

[ x ] - You wear glasses or contacts.
[ x ] - You chat online a lot.
[ ] - You always use correct grammar.
[ x ] - You like to take quizzes.
[ x ] - You eat out at restaurants more than you eat at home.
[ ] - You enjoy swimming.
[ ] - You have more than 5 pets.
[ ] - You have more than 10 pets.
[ x ] - You believe in ghosts.
[ x ] - You have seen a ghost.

TOTAL SO FAR = 21

[ ] - You prefer comedy movies over romance movies.
[ ] - You like dancing, either doing it yourself or watching.
[ ] - You have been to a strip club.
[ ] - You drink coffee in the morning.
[ x ] - You like to be awake at night.
[ x ] - You don't go outside often.
[ x ] - You love to read.
[ x ] - You believe in an afterlife of some kind.
[ x ] - You have/had short hair.
[ x ] - You know how to cook well.

GRAND TOTAL = 27

Answers

[ ]0 - 1 = Mosquito.
[ ]2 - 3 = A weed.
[ ]4 - 5 = Daisy.
[ ]6 - 7 = Janitor.
[ ]8 - 9 = Goose.
[ ]10 - 11 = Rock.
[ ]12 - 13 = Fireman.
[ ]14 - 15 = Rose.
[ ]16 - 17 = Mouse.
[ ]18 - 19 = Cow.
[ ]20 - 21 = Rabbit.
[ ]22 - 23 = Mental Patient.
[ ]24 - 25 = Grass.
[ x ]26 - 27 = Water.
[ ]28 - 29 = Bat.
[ ]30 - 31 = Hippo.
[ ]32 - 33 = Wolf.
[ ]34 - 35 = Vampire.
[ ]36 - 37 = Horse.
[ ]38 - 39 = Hawk.
[ ]40 - 41 = Spider.
[ ]42 - 43 = Flea.
[ ]44 - 45 = Princess or Prince.
[ ]46 - 47 = President

Enjoy!

Questionaire thing ~

From Jacob Afro Guy @ SheezyART:

1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Don't have any.

2. WHAT ARE ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Posters.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Black.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Varies.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
2am.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Money.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS RIGHT NOW?
My sanity.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
Photo albums.

9. POLAROIDS OR PHOTOBOOTHS?
Photobooths

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Nope.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
No.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU HAPPY?
Someone I know.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Pure Seduction atm.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hair - dark brown/black, eye - blue.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
O.o; uhm pro'ally at the beach.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Energy drink.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Bacon.

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Prime rib.

19. WHOS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
Someone I know.

21. WHAT WAS THE MOST ROMANTIC GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
Someone giving me a necklace in a bear case.

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Yes.


23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
No.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Not picky.

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I dunno...maybe a muscle car but not picky on which.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Of course.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Conforting & telling them.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13.

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes.

32. WHAT IS THE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
13.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
People assuming.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF YOUR COUNTRY?
Yep.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Now why should I tell that?

37. FIRST JOB?
Housekeeper.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
No.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
Playing WoW.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I wouldn't.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Boredom.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
O.o; be sad.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Not sure, that's tough.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
2.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Yes.

48. WHAT DID YOU DO THIS MORNING?
Recover.

49. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
Livestreaming.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING ?
Yes.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Turkey.

52(DOT) WHATS YOUR WORST HABIT?
Nibbling on the collar of my shirt.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
o.o; dunno.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Sure.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Never.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
No.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Draw. Verbally vent out to friends.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
I have none.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Nope.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
My gameboy.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Over 40?

62. FAVORITE DANCE?
Any.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Depends.

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Yep.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Personality.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
CherBear ... obviously.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Smores.

71. WHATS YOUR PLANS FOR THE YEAR?
Fulfilling my new year's solution.

72. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
Sapphire blue.

73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
My sanity.

74.HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
All 4.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
It's up to them.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
A commercial.

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Chocolate milk.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My friend.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Eyes.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
Leave out all the rest - Linkin Park

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
When I'm sick.

82. FAVORITE DRINK(S)?
Sprite.

83. ZODIAC SIGN:
Virgo.

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Dark brown/black.

86. EYE COLOR?
Brown.

87. HEIGHT?
5'4"

88. SIBLINGS?
None.

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
July.

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Yep.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Family Guy.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Comic Con!

93. DO YOU KNOW PAUL JACKSON?
...who?

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships.

97. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Chips.

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
People who don't wanna answer'em.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
At the moment, nothing.

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
No clue.