It feels like an unproductive month to say the least...in terms of artwork & everything due to real life circumstances that are taking priorities first. I won't delve into that too much but other than stressing over the little things due to the fact I have every reason to stress over the little things in the first place. There's been good & bad things that happened this past month though but I am taking things in stride & trying to keep a happy outlook on life.
I'll perhaps elaborate more if feelings allow me to do such. So let's see...
I've reached a plateau of realization that I need to move on from my current position & not dwell over the past 4 years of my life due to a hard tragic loss in my life. I admit, I got a little too comfortable & stayed stagnant by choice because life was consistent the past 4 years w/ unforeseen possibilities that maybe, just maybe life would get a little difficult & that would not be by choice or be within my control by any means. I miss the little things such as freedom to make choices w/o having to answer to anyone, move about a living area as I please -- in short, having roommates can be a bit cumbersome. Oh no...don't get me wrong, they're good company & fulfill a part of loneliness in life that can effect any person but prior to when living somewhat alone it was nice to abide by my own rules, set my own circumstances & have that kind of freedom to do as such -- a little selfish of me? Maybe ... but can you necessarily blame me? I'd like to think no. So hence, this unproductive month has strive me to find something to better my life situation where maybe, just maybe I can find what I lost long ago -- if it means slowing down on my initial passion, so be it...like I said in a tweet not too long ago -- I miss my sketchbook.
In the in-between of this search & artwork projects, I've embarked on a little challenge. Ever since my remorse of not claiming those two adorable 12 week old pugs (and now finding 2 4 week old pugs), I refocused my efforts on my 8yr old shih tzu/chi mix -- short story, prior owner & circumstances have accumulated about 4 years of bad habits, some neglect & common day to day daily routines that have been instilled into this pup that I have unknowingly inherited since living here. She's grown a strong pack & attachment mentality w/ us for some strange reason over everyone else in the household. Her prior owner comes by on occasion but they've already moved on, having adopted a new puppy who in their eyes is smarter, trained & well behaved & disowned their prior w/ harsh criticism & feeling their last dog was to say kindly, a failure. A rescue of some sorts w/ this now 8yr old shih tzu/chi mix, I did my fair research & challenged to see if this pup who's well into her middle age years & see if she can outshine her half sister that has replaced her. Not only is this for myself & my 8yr old pup, but for future reference of personal satisfaction of whether or not, foreseeing future pups under my care are cared for & trained properly. Rest assured, this isn't excuse to replace a need of having a kid but I personally see this as an achievement of a short term goal. On the note of kids? A pleasing thought but something much later down the line whenever I pass this plateau. How is the training going so far? About two weeks into the method of clicker training the 8yr old pup - sit, lay down & stay are works in progress but have been proven to gotten through to her & I try on a day to day basis depending on weather, to reward her by going out on short walks.
Joys - I'll sum these up as much as possible.
- I've been adamantly watching Legend of Korra, 4 episodes in & I have liked where this is going so far. Regardless of the nay say & those who are, as I'd like to say 'core' Avatar: The Last Airbender fanatics who dislike this follow up, I've appreciated the progression of 70yrs down the line after Aang's story played through & how it focuses on this generation's pending problems & plights the main female protagonist Korra is going through. Though it is early on - its fun speculating the possibilities & inter-relating it to ATLA series & where this is going.
- Desktop: Is up & functioning. My friend who originally built my desktop finally had some time to come over to install the power supply that had died out on me. Thankfully it was just only the power supply & it didn't kill anything else on my desktop. With funds being tight I'd hate to solely rely on my laptop.
Other than that, celebrated a family relative's birthday - saw some other family I hadn't seen in a while. Saw more family too. Enjoyed Easter. After a somewhat 1 month long hiatus on Audition, myself & Milo had come around to see how things are even though a good majority of us have been running around Azeroth, smashing things up.
Woes - I'll sum these up too.
Other than the plateau of where my life is at, funds have been getting tighter too so the attempt to better the situation is a work in process & seeing where it sticks.
Buyer's remorse on 2 12 week old puppies that are free to go to a good home & now finding 2 4 week old pugs that are free to go to a good home & can't claim'em.
Desktop is acting funny but being clever I'm fixing the situation (thank you laptop for finding online solutions).
Anyways, a positive outlook on May & the countdown to San Diego Comic Con starts now.
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