Thursday, November 15, 2012

A not so personal info meme ~



Taken from Kiyan200 at deviantART for this week's meme journal ~

Name: Miss CherBear
Age: 22
Height: 5'+
Weight: The fraction of a weight of a car
Sex: Female
Siblings: None
Sexual preference: Guys
Ethnicity: Asian
State you are in: California
City you are in: San Diego
Relationship status: In a relationship
Name of partner: Mister Milotic
Any problems: Too many to list
Girl best friend: You are! The person who is reading this :D!
Guy best friend: Mister Milotic.
Enemy: Those who don't read this.
Job: Artist / Dancer but in all actuality, real life 'n all, currently looking.
Hobby: Drawing / writing / observing
Favorite food: Surf & turf
Least favorite food: No hot/spicy food please :(
Favorite game: Audition Online 
Favorite color: Sapphire Blue
Favorite season: Fall
Fetish: Isn't that like a little voodoo doll thing?
Are you a virgin: No
If you aren't, how old were you: 17
Are you still sexually active: Yes
Do you want to get married: Yes...wait, in theory am I in a game? I dunno...
Do you want kids: Yes...but same prior statement applies xP.
If you do, how many: 3-5
Religion: Not listed due to standard protocol
Prolife or Prochoice: Same prior statement as above
Do you agree to gay marriage: Same prior statement as above too
Do you live alone: No
If not, who do you live with: Roommates.
Do you have pets: Yes
If so, how many: 1
What kind of pets: Chihuahua/Shiz Tzu mix
Do you have a computer: Yes
If so, how long are you on it: Varies really.
Have any Internet friends: I dunno, friends, enemies...well wishers...beats me.
If so, do you like them: Friends sure, enemies eh, well wishes, awh that's sweet.
Do they like you: No clue.
Are you a nice person: Generally yes.
Do you share: Yes, my name is Cher...oh of course I do share.
Any mental illnesses: Define illness.
If so, what: Not sure, I need it definied first.
Do you think of suicide: From time to time.
Have you attempted to commit suicide: No.
Have you cut yourself: On accident, not on purpose.
Ever been to jail: Not....really? Technically yes but...I dunno either.
Drank alcohol: Yep ~
Smoked: Nope.
Do you think this meme is dumb: Nope.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Thoughts for the week ~




Greetings & salutations, reaching the end of the week & closing it up with livestream sometime today...maybe. At least that is the tentative plan for today. Lots to chatter about, the week has had its highs & lows.

So roaming around my stomping grounds, I've been participating in beer week. Yes, I am of legal drinking age & its my first time to participate in this event. Trying some beers, especially since there are a lot of beer crafters that do what they love. Even though I've had some favorites, I had been adventurous to try out the following:

Regular Speedway Stout (Not bad.)

Coconut and vanilla (Surprisingly delightful.)

Peanut Butter & cocao nibs (I had a Karl Strauss version, I think that one is a lil better than this one.)

Cocao nibs and vanilla bean (Enjoyed it.)

Single variety coffee - Kauai Reserve home roasted by AleSmith brewer Bill Batten (I liked it, smells like coffee!)

Mint chocolate (Really good.)

Licorice (You'd really have to like licorice to enjoy this one.)

Nutella (YUM!)

Pistachio (Very nutty.)

Dried sour cherries (Pretty good.)

Fresh cherries w/Jack Daniels oakchips (Not bad too.)

Hatch chilis (If you're not into spicy, this isn't for you. This has BITE.)

Pumpkin spicing (Smooth & pleasant.)

Ginger, nutmeg, allspice (Not bad either.)

Cocao nibs, vanilla, oak, & Irish whiskey (Yummy.)

And of course, the Kopi Luwak, aka Weasal Poo Speedway (Coffee smellin' too, pretty good but the other one is better I think.)

My favorite? The nutella beer of course! One thing they didn't list that I found utterly baffling is a cucumber one, it smelled like cucumber & tasted like it but it is very much a beer.

Other than that, yes, I am completely aware of the election that passed & I am not gonna go into that. Its one of my many personal things I stand by & refuse to talk to random people about. All I will say is at least the political ads have finally stopped until the next election, so uh yay?

Starting off the week, I did go see wreck it ralph. Preventing myself from spewing out any spoilers, I did totally enjoy it. Retro or modern, anyone & everyone I see can enjoy this movie. The soundtrack is catchy & I simply  adored it.

I'd have to mention offhand, the weather has been peculiar too, its been hot earlier this week, now its cold & raining. I'm not complaining 'bout the cold & raining, its just, I have a hard time adjusting to the weather shifts like that. Hopefully, I won't get sick.

Anyways, I'm still very much posting more stuff up, soon I'll have short term goal fulfilled by the end of this year & I'm happy. Going back to some drawing ideas I'd still like to hatch out & draw. Still gonna shamelessly plug in, livestream usually scheduled every Saturday & random moments throughout the week, including in-game sketching. If you enjoy my art & would like to commission me, by all means please leave a message so I can keep track of them. This also includes requests, even though they are iffy too but that depends on somethings, the ones who have requested that I replied back to, thank you for your patience. Any generous donations to help continue fund my artwork, I'll take humbly, please leave a message for that too. The holidays are quickly approaching, be prepared for family & relatives, food, food & more food!

Boredom ~




Another journal moment, taken by dewydoughnuts at deviantART:

10 Things You Wish You Could Say to 10 Different People:

10: Seriously? You're that surprised?
9: Before you question me, question yourself.
8: If you think you know me, think again.
7: I lose faith sometimes ...
6: I am disappointed where things went.
5: Give me 5 logical reasons to your point of view that are meaningful & not shallow.
4: You're so delusional.
3: You're crazy & not in a good way.
2: Remember, when you spell assume, the first 3 letters of spelling that word describes what you are.
1: Take responsibility!



9 Things About You

9: I am quiet in person.
8: I tend to observe people's behavior.
7: I enjoy the sound of falling rain.
6: I like baseball.
5: I've traveled.
4: I enjoy listening to music when I write & draw.
3: I actually am quite diverse in various forms of art. I choose to do more than the others. 
2: I don't believe everything people online tell me until they can physically prove or do something about it to make me say otherwise.
1: I tend to be realistic.



8 Ways to Win Your Heart

8: If you have sushi.
7: If you have steam crab.
6: If you have a prime rib.
5: If you have a jar of nutella.
4: If you have genuine insight.
3: If you have good humor.
2: If you have an open mind.
1: If you have a serious yet a playful side.



7 Things That Cross Your Mind Everyday

7: I wonder if anything interesting is going on today.
6: It's cold/hot.
5: How different would my life be if ...
4: I miss her ...
3: I'd like more money to fix this or buy that or pay off this.
2: I'm tired.
1: I'm hungry.



6 Things You do Before You Go to Sleep

6: See what's on t.v.
5: Check my messages on w/e network media that's on.
4: Listen to music.
3: Say good night to people.
2: Get ready for bed.
1: Call.



5 People you Couldn't Live Without

5: My local friends.
4: My family.
3: My online friends.
2: My sis.
1: Cow.



4 Things Your Wearing Right Now

4: Pac-man t-shirt.
3: Socks.
2: Glasses.
1: Sweatpants.



3 of your Favorite Songs

3: Go the Distance - Evan & Jarod.
2: I Miss You - Aaliyah.
1: Here (In your arms) - Hellogoodbye.



2 Things You Want to Do Before You Die

2: Travel more.
1: Threes- hah! Jk, uhm ... in general, just experience new things.



1 Confession

1: I'm a night owl? I don't know...

Saturday, November 3, 2012

CherBear's Aspirations: November 2012


Happy 3rd day of November - such a realization that November is already here, low & behold I'm facing a new year in less than a couple of months.

I did sum down October fairly well, I did mention that a lot of closures & mysteries were ending to some questions that not only affected me but friends & even family. Having that sort of information & ease of mind, I can say I'm content & prepared to continue to move forward.

I still am continuing my project to pull myself out of this current situation by its a long & slow process. Until then, I still strive to improve my artwork & look to attempt to get my projects going but ehhh *siggggh* ...
my short term goal is definitely to finish a good majority of requests that have been idle. It sucks that it couldn't be helped with a couple of hardware/software malfunctions but I managed to pull the laptop out of it for now. Its served me well for 4 years, I can stand to strangle a couple of more years out of it...or...something...hah! Either way, I am determined to & I'm nearing my goal very quickly!

It is also strange I must admit, that my creative surge kinda technically came months after my convention season...I guess I had a lot preoccupying my mind that I couldn't really even enjoy it or perhaps...who knows. Its a bit of a peculiar creative surge, usually its either if I have a artist writer's block - I can easily write & vice versa. This time around, its pretty much in middle so I can't complain.

Trying to let folks know other than through my usual lazy means of letting folks know about me livestreaming. I have had some expressed interest from folks that they'd like to watch its just...I'm too lazy to go above & beyond to letting folks know.

Other than that, there is also in-game drawing on Audition Redbana that I will be doing too.

So either way, lets hope my laptop behaves this month. Donations are taken with gratitude & I also do commission stuff ~ so please by all means keep that in mind. I may do something later down the line for the holidays but by limited request cuz I don't want to get bombarded & overwhelmed.

Thank you for watching so far & I hope to continue to look outside of the box, expand past the creative boundries & continue to inspire the uninspired.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

CherBear's Reflections: Oct. 2012 Happy Halloween




First off - Happy Halloween!

A few hours before its my turn to serve as the preverbial candy giver for this year. Dressing a lil sorta up this year in animal pajamas & preparing my lil game for trick or treaters to win a large candy bar within the sea of small & little fun sized candy bars.

Before I tend off to my post, I've been on a creative surge persay, both in the mood to write & draw has been a pleasant blessing.

I'm nearing finishing my requests on the forums & starting to go through requests that have been left here. All the little notes of you guys saying you like my artwork & ask if I do requests have been adding fuel to a dwindling confidence of my self worth as an artist.

Other than that, I've been switching it up, been doing some livestream everyday this week & not to mention ingame sketches while livestreaming them. I've had some help from some wonderful friends & I'm contemplating on doing them more ingame. ..what? where in-game? Audition Redbana of course.

Anyways, I can safely say, I'm rather confident & content over the end result of this month so far. No horror, hardware or software malfunctions to say the least, learning more about manga studio too.

I'm setting some personal short term goals to finish off this year too -- so, hopefully I can make that happen. For now, I see it is getting a little darker & the trick or treaters will be out shortly. So with that ...

Happy Halloween 2012 folks! Trick? or Treat? Your choice!

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Halloween week! - CherBear's Thoughts ~




This'll be a relatively short rant considering I'll be wrapping up this month in more detail.

Finished up a rather long meme journal which killed some time. I just prefered not to get into some subjects that were asked. Personal views I have and or opinions that tend to cause a many a debate over.

I'm looking to do livestream at least once a day everyday this week so I'll be sure to even post a lil snippet notice that I'll be livestreaming if anyone's interested in watching.

Anyways, I am prepped for passing out halloween candy, including my purchase of buying candy bars & making it a lil game for the trick or treaters to win a large candy bar.

For now - that is all, will wrap up more later this mid-week.

Le Meme ~




Taken from dewydoughnuts at deviantART: 

1. Who was your first kiss and what was it like? Ryan & it was quite sweet.
2. Are you in a relationship? If so, are you happy? Yes & sure I am.
3. Do you have a crush? As painful of the sound of being crushed, sure I do.
4. Who is your crush? There's no mystery if I tell who my crush is.
5. Are you a virgin? Nope.
6. What do you think of Valentine's Day? Happy Single's Awareness day for others.
7. Who is your Valentine? You guys!
8. Have you ever asked anyone out? Yes.
9. Who is your celebrity crush? Too many to choose from.
10. Has anyone ever asked you out and you turned them down? Uhm no?
11. Do you think anyone has a crush on you right now? No clue to be honest.
12. What is your favorite thing to do on Valentine's Day? Absolutely nothing.
13. What's the best Valentine's Day that you've had so far? Dinner & a movie.
14. What's your idea of a perfect date? One that starts when you wake up & end with falling asleep with them.
15. How do you know when you're in love? Something you feel within.
16. Have you ever loved someone on a romantic level? Yes.
17. Do you prefer more or less clingy relationships? Less clingy.
18. Do you feel like you're loved on an everyday basis? Very much so.
19. Are you usually the first person to make a move. Yes because I've adopted this mantra of having nothing to lose from it.
20. Have you ever asked someone out and they turned you down? Sure?
21. Do you feel like you're the dumpee or dumper most of the time? Dumpee
22. What's your "type"? Someone with a soul.
23. What are some of your favorite physical characteristics for your crush to have? Charming eyes.
24. Are you a hopeless romantic? Yes.
25. Do you think that you're a good kisser? Yes.
26. What's the farthest that you've ever gone? Uhm...
27. Have you ever had a secret admirer? Yep.
28. Have you ever been someone's secret admirer? Sure.
29. Do you have romantic fantasies? If so, what are they like and who is in them? Yep. Romantic, sometimes uh intense & the people in there are often very fuzzy.
30. What's something that always turns you on? Personality.

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A: Who do you like and Why? You because you are charming, endearing & fascinating.
B: Have you ever been in love? If yes, how many times, and how do you know it was love? Yes, far too many & it was something I truly felt I was at the time then & now.
C: Longest relationship you've ever been in, and why did it end? Prior to my current, 4yrs-ish, it ended cuz I couldn't be there for him when he needed someone.
D: Have you ever changed for someone, if yes, how? No.
E: Pretend I'm you ex, what do you want to say to me? How's life?
F: Have you ever been cheated on? Yep.
G: Have you ever cheated? Yep.
H: Would you date someone who's know for cheating, if yes why? Yep because its a challenge to see if they can overcome that difficulty.
I: What's the most important part of a relationship? Communication.
J: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? Serious relationships.
K: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"? Nope.
L: How many people have you ever hooked up with? More than 5, less than 10.
M: What's one thing you regret saying or not saying, doing or not doing in a previous relationship? No regrets or I wouldn't be where I am now. 
N: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex? Honestly? 21, a couple of years after being legal & hopefully that person is working if they happened to have a kid.
O: Do you believe in the phrase, "Age is just a number?" Why or why not? Yes because depending on people they can seem to get along regardless of age.
P: What about "Love at first sight"? Why or why not? No, it feels simply superficial. That works for others but not me.
Q: Turn on's? Charming eyes & personality. 
R: Turn off's? Superficial, fake & not engaging.
S: What do you consider a deal breaker? That all varies with whatever situation that is presented.
T: How do you know it's time to end a relationship? Common sense hits you like a brick wall.
U: Are you currently in a relationship? If yes, for how long? Yes & I dunno, feels like forever.
V: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends? Yes.
W: Do you think people should date their friends? Their choice.
X: How many relationships have you had? More than 5, less than 10.
Y: Do you think love can last forever? Yes.
Z: Do you believe love can conquer all things? Yes but I'm also realistic.

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1: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of? Generally no.
2: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be? Be true to yourself.
3: Do you think long distance relationships can work? Why or why not? Yes. As long as you both have the time, money, freedom & dedication to.
4: What do you notice first about another person? Their eyes & personality.
5: Do gay, lesbians, bisexuals or transgender people bother you? No.

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1. State your name: Cheryll
2. State the name that your parents almost named you: No clue.
3. Which of your relatives do you get along with the most? Cousins.
4. What was your first job? Housekeeper.
5. Which of your relatives do you despise the most? My uncle.
6. Did anything embarassing happen this week? No.
7. Do you miss your ex? No.
8. Do you ever dream about your ex? No.
9. What is your favorite color of clothing to wear? Black.
10. How do you wear your makeup? Once in awhile.
11. What are some of your nicknames? Cher, Cherry, CherBear.
12. How many bedrooms are in your house? 5
13. How many bathrooms? 3
14. Do you have a job? No.
15. Do you have a car? Yes.
16. Do you think you will go to college? Have been but now on a unvolunteered break to look for work.
17. Tell me what you think hate means: Ignorance over what they have little to no knowledge of.
18. What is your definition of ugly: Ugliness like beauty is by the eye of the beholder.
19. What is your definition of slutty: Little clothes, little brain.
20. Do you have muscles? No.
21. How about abs? No.
22. Do you work out every week? No.
23. Did you brush your teeth this morning? Yes.
24. Name a fact that you think is bullshit: Not sure, if its a fact, why would I think its bullshit?
25. Have you ever seen Pen and Tellers Bullshit? Yep.
26. Do you like Obama? Not discussing that.
27. Did you like Bush? Not discussing that either.
28. Something about your neighbors that you hate: Don't have any reason to hate my neighbors.
29. Something about your neighbors that you like: No clue?
30. Has your neighborhood ever thrown a block party? Not that I've seen.
31. Have you ever kissed someone you never saw again? Yep.
32. Have you ever sang in front of a crowd? Yep.
33. What kind of bathing suit do you wear? O.o; a one piece?
34. Do you like your eyes? No.
35. Do you think you are pretty? I think I'm not.
36. What do you think of girls who are ugly, who think they are hot? Ahaha whut?
37. Have you ever been called fat? Ah family, I love you too.
38. Have you ever confronted someone who was making fun of a stranger? I...don't think so?
39. Are you a bitch? No.
40. Have you ever been to a concert? Yes.
41. Do mean people lack a soul? No.
42. Have you ever put a curse on someone who said something mean about you? No.
43. Have you ever practiced witch craft? No.
44. What do you think of abortion? Not discussing that either.
45. Did you know people who practice satanism could curse you? No.
46. Do you believe in hexes? Sure?
47. Do you believe in vampires? It's plausible.
48. Who was the last person you talked to in person? Hum...
49. Do you have a Jacuzzi? No.
50. How much money is in your pocket right this moment? No pocket.
51. How much money is in your checking account? No clue.
52. How much is in your savings? Should I check?
53. Are you single? No.
54. Do you have kids? No.
55. Do you want kids (for those who dont have them)? In due time.
56. What do you think of people on welfare? Another thing I won't get into.
57. Do you believe there should be no taxes on anything? That'd be nice.
58. Are you smart? I don't think I am.
59. Did you ever skip school? Yep.
60. How many times have you gotten after school detention? I think only like 2 times.
61. How many times have you gotten in school suspension? None.
62. Have you ever been expelled? If yes, what for? None.
63. What is your worst subject in school? P.E.
64. Tell me what your back pack looks like: Black & grey.
65. Who is the ugliest person in your school? No clue.
66. Who is the happiest person you know? No clue.
67. Who is the loudest person you know? No clue.
68. Who is the most annoying person you have ever met? Eh, no clue.
69. What celebrity do you think is hot? If they're out, they should be doused with water Dx;
70. Did you read Twilight? No.
71. Last movie you saw in theatre: Uh...shoot uhm The Avengers?
72. Are you dating the same person you dated last year? Sure.
73. Has someone you were dating ever cheated on you? Before.
74. Have you ever cheated? Yes.
75. Have you ever flirted with someone you just met? Sure.
76. Have you ever been on a dating site? Yes.
77. Have you ever been in a physical fight? No.
78. Tell me one thing, about yourself, that makes you an ugly person? Everything.
79. Have you been honest? Yes & no.
80. Have you ever done drugs? Illegal drugs of course not Dx;.